Getting cold feet

Now that the year 2011 is actually here, the prospect of moving is getting more and more real and I would be lying if I said I was all excited and bubbly about it. Even though I have this overall feeling of "everything will be fine"and "we are so lucky, to pull something like this off" I do have moments where the sheer amount of obstacles and logistics, the possible tears and resistance, the heartbreak and heavy hearts makes me anxious, teary eyed and wonder, how I can stay focused and upbeat.
Whenever I feel that worried feeling creeping up and paralizing me, I try to focus on what is happening now, at the moment. I can only speculate so much about what will be and how things will be. Making life right now happy and each moment worthwile is the best I can do right now. Of course we try to savor the time we have left here, too. Soaking up the sunshine, still exploring new things. Making memories. Celebrating the little things that matter, recognizing and appreciating when things are going smooth and when my heart and soul are content and at peace with the world around me. I don't just want to rush from one week to the other, going crazy over packing, selling the house, planning and planning some more. Even though I never make new years resolutions, I might try to limit the time for all that move-related organizing and preparing to daytime hours, 8am-2pm, which is the time anyway I usually spend in my office. That's what I call my little corner of my bedroom, with all my arts & crafts, sitting at my favorite piece of furniture - my salvation army find of an old ethan allan desk, which HAS to come with us overseas.  In the morning is when I am most creative, coming up with new silhouette designs, making pendants, sketching. But also checking emails, taking orders, updating my website, cutting silhouettes, researching etc. And then there are those days when I work at Yoga in Common in the boutique that sells my pendants and silhouettes. I call it my happy place and just being there is like therapy! Maybe there is something about Feng Shui or vibes or kharma or I don't know, but of all the places I have been to in Myrtle Beach (including the beach, restaurants, sights, other peoples homes etc.) this Yoga studio has the most positive effect on whatever mood I am in. It might be that all the sweet people that go in and out there just leave a little bit of peace and happyness there for others to soak up :)
But even with that said, I do still feel - like anyone who is selfemployed - that I have yet to find that balance of work and leasure time. Artistic work, paperwork tasks (for the lack of a better word, ha, well, you know, bills, bookkeeping, filing, sorting etc.), prep work for moving and the WHOLE rest of my life, which is everything from grocery shopping to spending quality time with my husband and my lovely daughters (I always call them that, with a British Accent, ha, ha) are intertwined and mingled. The next few weeks I will try to do better in accomplishing all my work-related tasks in the morning so all the other things can have my undivided attention later on. Maybe that is another thing I learned from being around people that do yoga: be present! Well, maybe nothing new: one of my favorite quotes has always been "Carpe Diem".
 May this year be full of memorable moments, may the new beginnings be easier with a deep sense of gratitude for how good life has been so far and may we and everyone around us be striving for a more aware state of mind :)